i can appreciate this but replacing one drug with another is not something i'd like to do
fyi this isn't a "help me" thread lol, just telling a story here folks
I don't understand your resistance to prescription drugs, while at the same time relying on alcohol to get you through.
Taking one of these drugs is going to be a lot less damaging to your physical health, and much more beneficial to your mental health than relying on alcohol in the long run.
/(I'm a fucking hypocrite)