pretense: i am 32 years old. since i went through puberty at 12, i have developed a strong sense of anger and annoyance with everyone given a long enough period of time (nerdrage). this has applied to every person in my life, specifically including girlfriends and the relationships that i've had in my adult life. i would always get sick of them, no matter how hot they were or what they could do. didn't matter, i'd get sick of them.
i have always been heavily against taking anti-depressants and the like because i've always worried that they took away your personality and changed who you were as as a person, aka your relationships with friends and family. i've never had a problem having friends and girlfriends, and had always worried that taking a "clinically" medicated drug would change who i am as a person, so i have always avoided them at all costs.
i have 2 younger siblings who both have been on these types of drugs for years, and their reaction to such drugs only pushed my uninformed opinion about said drugs that they, in the end, did no good
fwd to 4 months ago: i was recently married, had a good job, and was starting a new family. however, my day to day anxiety was getting out of control. there was no reason for it, i would just be anxious as hell at work for no apparent reason within an hour or 2 of getting there. i couldn't sleep at all. no matter what i took or how much i drank, i'd be up 2-3 hours later in a panic. i always thought that there was something wrong with me, like a major organ was about to fail or i couldn't breathe.
finally my wife made me go to the doctor and tell him everything, which i did. i was prescribed 1.0 of lexapro to take on a daily basis, which i decided to go ahead and try. it was not an easy decision. the first few days i felt like i was on recreational drugs an hour or so after taking it, like starting to trip on e w/ the body buzz. after about 3 days this passed, and i felt really good. all the time. which was not normal. after a week that feeling wore off, yet wife told me how much happier i seemed. i couldn't tell this personally, i just felt "normal".
2 weeks in i guess it started to wear off so i went back to the dr for a check up and got upped to a 2mg dose of lexapro. started taking that and it was all fine and great, no anxiety, nothing to worry about. everything will work out, s'all good. but still, i never realized that i felt any different about anything. i felt like it was always this way, and didn't understand my wife and friends telling me how much happier i was. i honestly just felt the same, but not bad, just "normal", as i'd always thought i was.
ffw to today. we have recently made a big move across the country and started a new life, something that someone like me would be certainly anxious about, however, i wasn't, and i will gladly account that to the lexapro. however, it's been a few months on this drug and i've decided that i don't want it in my body anymore, so i've decided to "ween" myself off of it; this entire babbling of a post is coming to what i'm about to say here:
NEVER GO ON THESE TYPES OF DRUGS!
i've been weening myself off for the past few weeks and at this point haven't had any in over a week. i have to say i feel like hell, but only in the morning and at night, yet i haven't had any anxiety even once. the feeling i have i can't even describe in words, but i'll try:
it's like you're hung-over without nausea and have a headache without pain. it's like the central core of your being is vibrating through the top of your head, and when you blink you hear thunder in your ears. and it sucks and i was right to think that i should never try this under any circumstances.
also, i have had 0 sexual desire since about the 3rd week. i mean none. not even gay stuff. it's so fucking weird, not even having the desire to watch porn or touch a boob. it's awful and not worth it, at all. this was one of my biggest fears about taking these drugs and let me say, it's 100% true.
cliffs: if someone advises you to try (prescription) drugs, just say no
recreational drugs are much better
cliffs 2: i'm a huge gay faggot, but even so, would like to pass on my experience with fellow twers. i wish i had the chance to read this thread before i ever decided to take these drugs and hopefully it would have changed my mind.
please hammer me w/questions and insults.
i have always been heavily against taking anti-depressants and the like because i've always worried that they took away your personality and changed who you were as as a person, aka your relationships with friends and family. i've never had a problem having friends and girlfriends, and had always worried that taking a "clinically" medicated drug would change who i am as a person, so i have always avoided them at all costs.
i have 2 younger siblings who both have been on these types of drugs for years, and their reaction to such drugs only pushed my uninformed opinion about said drugs that they, in the end, did no good
fwd to 4 months ago: i was recently married, had a good job, and was starting a new family. however, my day to day anxiety was getting out of control. there was no reason for it, i would just be anxious as hell at work for no apparent reason within an hour or 2 of getting there. i couldn't sleep at all. no matter what i took or how much i drank, i'd be up 2-3 hours later in a panic. i always thought that there was something wrong with me, like a major organ was about to fail or i couldn't breathe.
finally my wife made me go to the doctor and tell him everything, which i did. i was prescribed 1.0 of lexapro to take on a daily basis, which i decided to go ahead and try. it was not an easy decision. the first few days i felt like i was on recreational drugs an hour or so after taking it, like starting to trip on e w/ the body buzz. after about 3 days this passed, and i felt really good. all the time. which was not normal. after a week that feeling wore off, yet wife told me how much happier i seemed. i couldn't tell this personally, i just felt "normal".
2 weeks in i guess it started to wear off so i went back to the dr for a check up and got upped to a 2mg dose of lexapro. started taking that and it was all fine and great, no anxiety, nothing to worry about. everything will work out, s'all good. but still, i never realized that i felt any different about anything. i felt like it was always this way, and didn't understand my wife and friends telling me how much happier i was. i honestly just felt the same, but not bad, just "normal", as i'd always thought i was.
ffw to today. we have recently made a big move across the country and started a new life, something that someone like me would be certainly anxious about, however, i wasn't, and i will gladly account that to the lexapro. however, it's been a few months on this drug and i've decided that i don't want it in my body anymore, so i've decided to "ween" myself off of it; this entire babbling of a post is coming to what i'm about to say here:
NEVER GO ON THESE TYPES OF DRUGS!
i've been weening myself off for the past few weeks and at this point haven't had any in over a week. i have to say i feel like hell, but only in the morning and at night, yet i haven't had any anxiety even once. the feeling i have i can't even describe in words, but i'll try:
it's like you're hung-over without nausea and have a headache without pain. it's like the central core of your being is vibrating through the top of your head, and when you blink you hear thunder in your ears. and it sucks and i was right to think that i should never try this under any circumstances.
also, i have had 0 sexual desire since about the 3rd week. i mean none. not even gay stuff. it's so fucking weird, not even having the desire to watch porn or touch a boob. it's awful and not worth it, at all. this was one of my biggest fears about taking these drugs and let me say, it's 100% true.
cliffs: if someone advises you to try (prescription) drugs, just say no
recreational drugs are much better
cliffs 2: i'm a huge gay faggot, but even so, would like to pass on my experience with fellow twers. i wish i had the chance to read this thread before i ever decided to take these drugs and hopefully it would have changed my mind.
please hammer me w/questions and insults.
