confidential
Veteran X
i make 20 dollars an hour if by an hour we mean 3 hours
I tried to go to school, but got screwed over. I was going to go to the University of Texas at Dallas. Everything was looking good, until at the last minute something was messed up with the loan, and I ended up only have $1,000 dollars, which didn't even cover 1/4 of my tuition. I had to withdraw. Well now they are saying that I still owe them $800 dollars of tuition because I didn't withdraw in time.
This is not true. I found out at the very last minute that my loan stuff was messed up, so I had to go the last deadline day for a full refund to withdraw. Well the lady said she was too busy to see me, but if I came in the next day, she would make sure I wasn't charged anything. So I came in, she said she was entering the info into the computer where I wouldn't be charged. Being an idiot, I didn't get any written confirmation of this. So now they say I owe them $800, and the lady who did that apparently doesn't remember me. They won't let me apply again until this matter is taken care of. I keep trying to contact people, but they all just tell me the "matter is still up for review". It's been 6 months and people still keep blowing me off.
Who I am as a human being doesn't help. I'm very socially awkward and quiet and have very very few friends. I honestly have not made a new friend in over 2 years. I don't "know people in the right places". I don't have any skills or trade or experience in anything to help me find a better job. I'm too much of a vagina to join the military (I pussied out and quit the police academy when I tried that because it just terrified the shit out of me).
See, the fact that this is true, and it is, I can personally confirm this from a variety of experiences of my own from a number of jobs I've had over the years, it kind of makes me wonder why Communism was always viewed as pure concentrated evil.
I remember debating the subject with one of my history teachers, who promptly told me that Communism as bad because it encouraged workers to be lazy - since higher productivity didn't necessarily promise a promotion or increase in pay.
The short and narrow....Anyway, that's my advice.
Sell the bike, learn to day trade, use the money to buy/sell stocks on a daily basis, profit.
Don't worry.
work hard, and try harder. things will work out in the end.
seriously, try to be more outgoing, and outspoken - make some friends. in this world its who you know, not what you know. if you don't know anyone you're going ot have a rough rough time.
Just to let you know, an dmaybe give you some hope - a little over 3 years ago I was looking at going to jail for a long time (possibly), i had withdrawn from the univeristy, hadn't had a steady relationship in 2 years, and had basically gone hard towards drinking heavily and blowing all my money.
Now i'm making ~ 50k a year, have 2 AS degrees, am a programmer/systems administrator for a small company, looking at getting married, bought a brand new car thats almost paid off, and waiting to go towards closing on a new house.
My dad and his budy gave me some good advice, advice i followed and came true. Suck it up, stop dwelling on your fuckups. Learn from them and stop making more fuckups, get a decent girlfriend, quit caring about being 'cool', start looking for a real job, and stop drinking (among other things).
In short, learn some fucking responsibility and instead of expecting help, or blaming your problems on other people /events, go out there and earn your keep.
It worked... i hope it works for you.