Tremorkill
Veteran XV
Ok, so this might get kind of long.
My life is sort of in the shitter. Partially because of outside factors, and partially because of poor decisions I've made. I'm not quite sure how to organize this, so I'll just type it as it comes.
Let me get the background info out of the way. I'm broke, I'm 22 years old, and I live with my mom in a not so pleasant part of Dallas, TX. Pleasant Grove to be exact. Our house and neighborhood are decent, but the crime in the area is still pretty bad. None of my friends live close. Etc. I have 50 hours of community colleg under my belt. I work at PetSmart.
Ok, so I don't know what to do. My life is just stuck in the shitter. Here's one of the major bad decisions I made. I bought a Harley Davidson. When I bought it, I had a decent job making 9.25 an hour, and some friends and family of mine all had bikes, so I thought we were all going to be going on cool rides and adventures and whatnot. Would have been worth the financial burden. Well they ALL pretty much decided that they didn't want to do this anymore, sold their bikes, and took up other random hobbies. Well I'm still stuck with mine. The payment is $380 a month. This thing really financially kicks my ass now, and since my friends and family don't have them anymore, it's essentially worthless to me. I'm still $7000 in the hole so I can't even get them to just take it back. I owe about $19,000 total on it.
Due to the management at the job getting ridiculous and purposely screwing me over on many occasions (mostly because I was too scared to ever stand up for myself, unlike other employees), I decided to quit. I was passed over on promotions. I was always made to work all holidays when others got all of them off, etc. Constantly working overtime and weekends because others were absent and didn't show up, yet I NEVER EVER missed a day or was late. They were never punished or fired for no call-no shows, many of them were even promoted over me. It was a security guard job btw.
So ever since then I can't find any places to hire me except for lame little jobs at places like Gold's Gym and Petsmart that only pay me 7 dollars an hour. I've applied to other security jobs, and higher paying jobs, but no one even wants to interview me. So I'm stuck making about $700 dollars a month, which gets quickly sucked away by bills and gas. I haven't been able to save anything up. This wouldn't be all THAT bad if I could at least find a place to work that was enjoyable and I could actually make friends at.
I tried to go to school, but got screwed over. I was going to go to the University of Texas at Dallas. Everything was looking good, until at the last minute something was messed up with the loan, and I ended up only have $1,000 dollars, which didn't even cover 1/4 of my tuition. I had to withdraw. Well now they are saying that I still owe them $800 dollars of tuition because I didn't withdraw in time.
This is not true. I found out at the very last minute that my loan stuff was messed up, so I had to go the last deadline day for a full refund to withdraw. Well the lady said she was too busy to see me, but if I came in the next day, she would make sure I wasn't charged anything. So I came in, she said she was entering the info into the computer where I wouldn't be charged. Being an idiot, I didn't get any written confirmation of this. So now they say I owe them $800, and the lady who did that apparently doesn't remember me. They won't let me apply again until this matter is taken care of. I keep trying to contact people, but they all just tell me the "matter is still up for review". It's been 6 months and people still keep blowing me off.
Who I am as a human being doesn't help. I'm very socially awkward and quiet and have very very few friends. I honestly have not made a new friend in over 2 years. I don't "know people in the right places". I don't have any skills or trade or experience in anything to help me find a better job. I'm too much of a vagina to join the military (I pussied out and quit the police academy when I tried that because it just terrified the shit out of me).
So with bad jobs, no money, few friends, no attention from females, and no excitement/things pleasant in my life, I'm all out.
I just really have no idea what the hell to do at this point. I just don't know how to change anything, or get out of my situation and into a happy/better one. So...does anyone have any ideas?
PS, please know replies telling what a fucking idiot I am. I already know this.
My life is sort of in the shitter. Partially because of outside factors, and partially because of poor decisions I've made. I'm not quite sure how to organize this, so I'll just type it as it comes.
Let me get the background info out of the way. I'm broke, I'm 22 years old, and I live with my mom in a not so pleasant part of Dallas, TX. Pleasant Grove to be exact. Our house and neighborhood are decent, but the crime in the area is still pretty bad. None of my friends live close. Etc. I have 50 hours of community colleg under my belt. I work at PetSmart.
Ok, so I don't know what to do. My life is just stuck in the shitter. Here's one of the major bad decisions I made. I bought a Harley Davidson. When I bought it, I had a decent job making 9.25 an hour, and some friends and family of mine all had bikes, so I thought we were all going to be going on cool rides and adventures and whatnot. Would have been worth the financial burden. Well they ALL pretty much decided that they didn't want to do this anymore, sold their bikes, and took up other random hobbies. Well I'm still stuck with mine. The payment is $380 a month. This thing really financially kicks my ass now, and since my friends and family don't have them anymore, it's essentially worthless to me. I'm still $7000 in the hole so I can't even get them to just take it back. I owe about $19,000 total on it.
Due to the management at the job getting ridiculous and purposely screwing me over on many occasions (mostly because I was too scared to ever stand up for myself, unlike other employees), I decided to quit. I was passed over on promotions. I was always made to work all holidays when others got all of them off, etc. Constantly working overtime and weekends because others were absent and didn't show up, yet I NEVER EVER missed a day or was late. They were never punished or fired for no call-no shows, many of them were even promoted over me. It was a security guard job btw.
So ever since then I can't find any places to hire me except for lame little jobs at places like Gold's Gym and Petsmart that only pay me 7 dollars an hour. I've applied to other security jobs, and higher paying jobs, but no one even wants to interview me. So I'm stuck making about $700 dollars a month, which gets quickly sucked away by bills and gas. I haven't been able to save anything up. This wouldn't be all THAT bad if I could at least find a place to work that was enjoyable and I could actually make friends at.
I tried to go to school, but got screwed over. I was going to go to the University of Texas at Dallas. Everything was looking good, until at the last minute something was messed up with the loan, and I ended up only have $1,000 dollars, which didn't even cover 1/4 of my tuition. I had to withdraw. Well now they are saying that I still owe them $800 dollars of tuition because I didn't withdraw in time.
This is not true. I found out at the very last minute that my loan stuff was messed up, so I had to go the last deadline day for a full refund to withdraw. Well the lady said she was too busy to see me, but if I came in the next day, she would make sure I wasn't charged anything. So I came in, she said she was entering the info into the computer where I wouldn't be charged. Being an idiot, I didn't get any written confirmation of this. So now they say I owe them $800, and the lady who did that apparently doesn't remember me. They won't let me apply again until this matter is taken care of. I keep trying to contact people, but they all just tell me the "matter is still up for review". It's been 6 months and people still keep blowing me off.
Who I am as a human being doesn't help. I'm very socially awkward and quiet and have very very few friends. I honestly have not made a new friend in over 2 years. I don't "know people in the right places". I don't have any skills or trade or experience in anything to help me find a better job. I'm too much of a vagina to join the military (I pussied out and quit the police academy when I tried that because it just terrified the shit out of me).
So with bad jobs, no money, few friends, no attention from females, and no excitement/things pleasant in my life, I'm all out.
I just really have no idea what the hell to do at this point. I just don't know how to change anything, or get out of my situation and into a happy/better one. So...does anyone have any ideas?
PS, please know replies telling what a fucking idiot I am. I already know this.