it is 2 fold rly dgon pat i will explain
i think it cute that u jump on 4 poster who all r cooler than u
me stork 2 good tpk (he autism now but i think he use 2 have brain that not damage plus he use 2 b real good player in his time)
and i think u def want accept from ppl like dare/cyanide but they r real good gamer so that y there is connection there
u just forum post and love tribe so even if u r cool u never gonna be in cool club
so u try 2 act real cool and fit in etc
that my psycho analysis of u feel free 2 post more