when we troll, the object is to get someone to respond emotionally and engage in correspondence that one would otherwise ignore or refuse to dignify with one's presence. in this regard, you are clearly being trolled. your stipulation that you wish to respond because you enjoy it is a lie, because your actual preference is to not be in the position of responding in the first place.
unless you consider the defense of your poor decisions and the public examination of your wasted life to be enjoyable, (a position which i would not accept at face value), there is no actual reason for you to be in this thread other than to address your massive insecurities, which are, based on my observation, considerable in scope.