now i'm pissed off.
a year ago i wore a size 34 and had these 38 jeans i couldnt fit in without a belt. today i'm wearing those very same size 38 jeans with no belt and they feel snug. i'm about 6'1", 180 - not fat per se, but over my desired weight. it's uncomfortable. i get winded going up the stairs to my apartment. fucking unacceptable.
i eat out of boredom. i have a desk job where i sit at a computer for 4 hours, go to lunch and get a huge unhealthy portion, go back to my desk for 4 more hours then go home and sit on the computer for like 4 more hours, eat a huge dinner, watch some tv. wash rinse and repeat. i'm beginning to feel it - heart pounds when i'm doing nothing, real slow heavy thuds... that's cholesterol probably. clenching a fist makes my arm shudder and twitch. looking at myself in the mirror i know i'm not fit. i don't necessarily want to be cut and have rippling abs and pecs and biceps, i just want to be lean.
AND SO, the goal: lose 20 pounds between now, June 2, and the end of July. the program: one breakfast bar in the morning, water and small portion of something non fattening at lunch, small dinner. 20-30 minutes of exercising and stretching with the a/c behind me and the tv in front. i have 4 pepsis left in the fridge... and i'm not buying another 12 pack of them so help me god. might have a little sprite with a meal, once or twice a week, JUST because i hate the flavor of diet drinks, but absolutely not the two or three cans of pepsi A DAY i am drinking currently.
thank you for the inspiration diox - if i don't bail out of this expect the trav rocks your face thread on august 1st...