Dear Ixiterra

u ded mon?


havent seen you in #thenuts for a while

come back =[

u ded mon?


havent seen you in #thenuts for a while
No, but poker and life have been annoying me lately. And it's hard to resist the urge to spam horrible beats that I take anally daily in the channel. Poker went from making $80 an hour to losing $20 or more an hour for a long period of time. I played extremely well today (trust me, I know when I play well and when I don't) and what did I end up with? $33. On Tuesday, I went 800 hands without ever drawing a single flush (lost $180). Even with hands I folded preflop I only would have made like 3 flushes. AA went 1/4 today (one hand with another AA, we both lost to JJ), QQ 1/7 with a flopped set over set loss to AA. So whatever, nobody wants to hear that shit all day in the channel. ;)

I've said it before. It's a major soap opera playing poker for a living. And the way I play, my variance has skyrocketed. 23%+ VP$IP and 8 tables of 2/4 and 3/6 mixed in. When you're down $500 at 2/4, it's hard to stay focused sometimes. People tell me, "quit for the day when you're up xxx or down xxx" or when I start bitching about how much I've lost or bragging about how much I've won. But I have to keep playing because "in the long run" I should always be earning money as I play (there is no doubt that I can win at poker). Then, irrationally, I take days off because I get pissed at poker.

So, in conclusion, I'd rather just avoid acting like a dickhead in the channel. And the only way to do that is to not be there. I thought I had tilt and everything worked out, but honestly I started playing without enough bankroll to do it as a full time job. I've had a few unexpected and a few overzealous expenses lately thinking I was gonna keep $4k a month up, which didn't happen. Until I have a very large bankroll and money spread around and other deals going like rakeback, tilt probably isn't avoidable. It's the money that pisses me off more than the bad beats.

4K/month at 2/4 would be so tough. Just simply beating 2/4 at party is fucking hard enough, let alone beating that well. I'm still struggling there. Maybe I just haven't adjusted to the wild nature of the games there, but it's definately high variance poker.

Play NL

NL requires more concentration than I can seem to give when I play online.

Well at least the Party gods shined on me today. +$650.

Play NL

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